On Living and Loving: Wed Recap: I feel like I'm suffocating!

If you don't remember, I shared before about my fear pre-wedding that I would pass out on my wedding day or even worse, at the altar! Then I did a recap of what the morning of the wedding was like for me and how whenever there was 'down time' during the day of the wedding where I was just sitting with nothing to do, I would truly feel nauseous and like I was going to pass out.

Please understand, this was not a feeling of being anxious or nervous. No, I think what was really causing me to feel this way was that I was lacking oxygen!

I truly did love this gorgeous little number:

(The one above is my FAVORITE photo of me in my dress that day because it is just fanned out so perfectly. If only my bouquet wasn't so high and huge blocking this beautiful bustline below.)

The more I look at the pictures and video from our wedding, the more I fall in love with it.

Yes, Maggie Sottero made a great gown when she came up with the SaBelle. And one of the main reasons I chose this dress was because it had a corset back:

I have always been pretty thin my whole life but once in a great while my weight fluctuates up or down. I didn't want to take the chance of a strapless gown falling off of me if I lost weight right before the wedding so I wanted a corset that could be adjusted to allow some freedom for my body. And I really loved the style and embellishments around it, too.

Unfortunately, the problem with a corset is that they are extremely constricting. Remember that scene in Titanic where Kate Winslet's character is having her corset dress tied up by her mother and she pulls the thing so tight she can barely breathe? Well, that's what a corset does, DUH! I don't know why women ever used to put themselves through the torture back in the day!

Being that I don't boast much of a chest, I needed the gown to be pretty tight because there was nothing else to hold it up. Add that in with a gown that my seamstress referred to as 'the heaviest wedding dress I've ever worked on' and you have a pretty bad combination for a bride who is prone to passing out.

Thus, I give you one of my favorite video clips of the raw footage from my wedding. Since my friend, Charlie is singing at the time me and Mr Fix It are having this little conversation, I added in some captions to assist with what we are saying to one another, but you may want to turn the volume up pretty loud to hear our conversations. (I also love this because we are having full on random conversations during this moment of the ceremony and in addition Mr Fix It felt the need to point out that my false eyelash was coming off.)

Basically, what it comes down to is that I was so freaking glad that I had planned on changing into a second dress to dance in. Originally, I wanted to wear my ball gown through the cocktail hour, grand entrance, toasts, and dinner. Then I was going to change into my second dress when they reintroduced us for our first dance. But after the cocktail hour I was done! So I went in and changed into my second dress just before our Grand Entrance. As we were standing behind the fireplace hiding from our guests until it was our turn to be introduced, I asked Mr Fix It what he thought of my new dress I had just put on. He looked me up and down and said one word: "Hot."

These are some of the best shots I found of me in the reception dress. It would have looked a hell of a lot sexier had I worn the gold heels I bought to go with it, but by this point of the day (like 7 hours after having been in my gown and other heels) I was too tired and had sore feet that were thanking me for grabbing a pair of the flip flop favors out of the basket you see right behind our cake table.